I’m sorry, I have been really sick with a bad head cold, fever, throat and ear issues. My Husband was trying to help so he published my blog ( Thanks hun for trying 🙂 ) and it really wasn’t ready so I came back and made some changes. I’m sorry, my video was not on here ( and has no sound, that wasn’t an issue I haven’t been able to fix) and it wasn’t edited yet! Still not feeling very well and somewhat medicated so hope this is ok, lol! I’m sorry ya’ll are getting this twice, and hope you don’t mind reading it again. 🙂
We all have those don’t we? The some days, the should have’s, the could be’s! The lying on the bed with the coat hangers sucking in just ONE more DAMN inch from those DAMN jeans, or the ‘passed over look’ of the one person we wanted to notice us? How about the some day, I will work out ‘ some day’ or I will start my diet ‘ tomorrow’? Yeah, or what about the infamous ‘ Ex’? Yeah, I have that to, I adore my Husband don’t get me wrong but my Ex, as many issues as I have with him, my memories got me through some rough moments! Any of you have those? That ONE thought of revenge, that ONE song that plays just for the two of you, the more ‘ twisted’ the better, or maybe it’s just me who is like that? It is not that you want them, but you want them to see you looking just AMAZING? 🙂 I can be the happiest I’ve ever been and still that one song speaks of the best revenge, the worst breakup, the most ‘ get even’ and in this situation, well, it really helped me. If you could see my iPod, you would understand and maybe I will make that one of my posts, a music post, for hey, what gets you through right? We can’t all be thinking of beaches right, or am I the only twisted sister out there, lol? The would of, could of, should of’s? I have a daughter who is about turn 18 and I adore her, and all her life I have never kept my word about this diet, I have failed at EVERY DIET, yeah, how many have you been there? What a role model I HAVE been! We WANT to and wham, the dreaded three days come around, yeah you know the ones I am talking about and a cheeseburger NEVER tasted so good, you would DETEST it during the week but something happens on Saturday that just shuts your brain off right? I don’t know why either, but I can tell you I have learned some tricks, we CAN do this, it DOES get easier!
Well, as so many of you know I have gone through this journey, and still going through it. I ‘m going to try and back track and do what I can to show you what I did, help you walk through it and show you what I did! Yes, I made mistakes, yes I went backwards , YES, I blew it on the weekends BUT I learned from it and YES, I have an injury and have lost over 90 pounds and YES, I don’t work out like the majority of people ( not by choice I miss you Beth!), I can’t! At this point, I am still having complications from my total knee replacement I had in 2010 and I am now having shoulder issues, we just did the MRI Saturday to see if my rotator cuff is torn (update) it is NOT torn, we have found out that I have a lot of inflammation and arthritis. I have to see a specialist to see where to go from here. I am starting to have pain in my right shoulder as well, I am not exactly sure what all this means as of yet.
Here is my first installment…
Before the Eat Clean Diet, before anything else I was lost…I thought, there is NOTHING that could help me. My best friend Kat introduced me to Biggest Loser and I thought, oh lovely, another reality Tv show and then Jillian, Bob and Allie happened and I was hooked….and frankly I need someone to kick MY ASS! Ya’ll need me to help you and well, I need you to help ME, hold me accountable, keep ME in line! For I am towards the end, I need someone who won’t be afraid to tell ME what is what! Michael is wonderful, God love him! But he is the Hubby and, well that gets complicated for you can only hear that truth so often you know? Does anyone ELSE know what I mean? He means well but we are together all the time, I need someone else, someone others to help me with this journey, any takers, can someone be my ‘ Jillian’? It is just different if that makes sense?
Jill got my ass off the couch, her and her black team which was so often the underdog, I rooted for her, I cried for her, I was like YES, she is MEAN, but she has heart, she has soul- I LOVE IT! 🙂 I was terrified, I was scared, I was afraid but I was going to do it, they were coming to Michigan. ( I wanted Jillian, I wanted her to go for her) I was 245 pounds and I needed to change my life! I needed Jill, Bob and Allie…I needed change! I needed a Jillian, that courage, that strength-someone who can hold ME to it, oh I will do that work, I have…I just need to follow through and get to the end! She inspired me, I miss her! Sadly, I couldn’t I had surgery soon after…
I wish I had the sound, somehow it got deleted but you can at least see what I was going through in this brief clip, I wanted ya’ll to see that I have BEEN there, I do REMEMBER! I walked the walk, I made the excuses, I cried the tears and I was a mess, oh such a mess! So, as Biggest Loser starts their season with no excuses, I believe that should be our theme as well, so please, oh please join me and let’s have NO EXCUSES!!!! I will cheer you on as you cross your finish line, so let’s do this together!!!! We have so much we can learn from one another for my journey is NOT over, I am still walking it! Let’s do this!!! One pound at a time!!!