One step back, from this Biggest Loser wanna be….


Update, I added some audio to my video! 🙂 I am still sick, so please note that if it doesn’t sound the best but I tried… 🙂 Hope it helps anyway! 🙂

I’m  sorry, I have been really sick with a bad  head cold, fever, throat and ear issues. My Husband was trying to help so he published my blog ( Thanks hun for trying 🙂 ) and it really wasn’t  ready so I  came  back and made some changes. I’m sorry, my video was not on here ( and has no sound, that wasn’t an  issue I haven’t been able to fix)  and it wasn’t edited yet! Still not feeling very well and somewhat medicated so hope this is ok, lol!  I’m sorry  ya’ll are getting this twice,  and hope you don’t mind reading it again. 🙂

xooxoxoxo

Traci

We all have those don’t we? The some days, the should have’s, the could be’s! The lying on the bed with the coat hangers sucking in just ONE more DAMN inch from those DAMN jeans, or the ‘passed over look’ of the one person we wanted to notice us? How about the some day, I will work out ‘ some day’ or I will start my diet ‘ tomorrow’? Yeah, or what about the infamous ‘ Ex’? Yeah, I have that to, I adore my Husband don’t get me wrong but my Ex, as  many issues as I have with him, my memories  got me through some rough moments! Any of you have those? That ONE thought of revenge, that ONE song that plays just for the two of you, the more ‘ twisted’ the better, or maybe it’s just me who is like that? It is not that you want them, but you want them to see you looking just AMAZING? 🙂 I can be the happiest I’ve ever been and still that one song speaks of the best revenge, the worst breakup, the most ‘ get even’ and in this situation, well, it really helped me. If you could see my iPod, you would understand and maybe I will make that one of my posts, a music post, for hey, what gets you through right? We can’t all be thinking of beaches right, or am I the only twisted sister out there, lol?  The would of, could of, should of’s? I have a daughter who is about turn 18 and I adore her, and all her life I have  never kept my word about this diet, I have failed at EVERY DIET, yeah, how many have you been there? What a role model I HAVE been!  We WANT to and wham, the dreaded three days come around, yeah you know the ones I am talking about and  a cheeseburger NEVER tasted so good, you would DETEST it during the week but something happens on Saturday that just shuts your brain off right? I don’t know why either, but I can tell you I have learned some tricks, we CAN do this, it DOES get easier!

Well, as so many of you know I have gone through this journey, and still going through it.  I ‘m going to  try and  back track and do what I can to show you what I did, help you walk through it and show you what I did! Yes, I made mistakes, yes I went backwards , YES, I blew it on the weekends BUT I learned from it and YES, I have an injury and have lost over 90 pounds and YES, I don’t work out like the majority of people ( not by choice I miss you Beth!), I can’t! At this point, I am still having complications from my total knee replacement I had in 2010 and I am now having shoulder issues, we just did the MRI Saturday to see if my rotator cuff is torn (update) it is NOT torn, we have found out that I have a lot of inflammation and arthritis.  I have to see a specialist to see where to go from here. I am starting to have pain in my right shoulder as well, I am not exactly sure what all this means as of yet.

Here is my first installment…

Before the Eat Clean Diet, before anything else I was lost…I thought, there is NOTHING that could help me. My best friend Kat introduced me to Biggest Loser and I thought, oh lovely, another reality Tv show and then Jillian, Bob and Allie  happened and I was hooked….and frankly I need someone to kick MY ASS! Ya’ll need me to help you and well, I need you to help ME, hold me accountable, keep ME in line! For I am towards the end, I need someone who won’t be afraid to tell ME what is what! Michael is wonderful, God love him! But he is the Hubby and, well that gets complicated for you can only hear that truth so often you know? Does anyone ELSE know what I mean? He means well but we are together all the time, I need someone  else, someone others to help me with this journey, any takers, can someone be my ‘ Jillian’?  It is just different if that makes sense?

Jill  got my ass off the couch, her and her black team which was so often the underdog, I rooted for her, I cried for her, I was like YES, she is MEAN, but she has heart, she has soul- I LOVE IT! 🙂 I was terrified,  I was scared, I was afraid but I was going to do it, they were coming to Michigan. ( I wanted Jillian, I wanted her to go for her)  I was 245 pounds and I needed to change my life! I needed Jill, Bob and Allie…I needed change! I needed a Jillian, that courage, that strength-someone who can hold ME to it, oh I will do that work, I have…I just need to follow through and get to the end! She inspired me, I miss her! Sadly, I couldn’t I had surgery soon after…

I wish I had the sound, somehow it got deleted but you can at least see what I was going through in this brief clip, I wanted ya’ll to see that I have BEEN there, I do REMEMBER! I walked the walk, I made the excuses, I cried the tears and I was a mess, oh such a mess! So, as Biggest Loser starts their season with no excuses, I believe that should be our theme as well, so please, oh please join me and let’s have NO EXCUSES!!!! I will cheer you on as you cross your finish line, so let’s do this together!!!! We have so much we can learn from one another for my journey is NOT over, I am still walking it! Let’s do this!!! One pound at a time!!!

X0xoxoxoxoxo

Traci

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6 thoughts on “One step back, from this Biggest Loser wanna be….

  1. hate that there’s no sound but wow it does clearly show how far you’ve come Traci! You should be so proud of yourself for not giving up and not giving in, despite all the challenges you have had.
    Very inspirational! I’ve starting keeping a blog too of my thoughts and stuff I am finding as I research stuff and try stuff and what not.
    big hugs to you. You’re FABULOUS!!! *GRIN*

  2. I tried to show, but these pants are XXL, lol! It was crazy, this was like 8 minutes long! Had I known I was going to youtube it, I bet I could have kept the whole thing! 😦 And yeah I wish I still had the sound too, not sure how to fix that but you get the basis idea…kinda scary huh? But thank you!

    And yes, keeping a blog is something I will be talking about in one of my later posts for that is REALLY important and one of the first things I learned in Weight Watchers, I logged EVERYTHING! You just don’t realized what all you eat in one day….

    Thank you again my dear!

    xoxooxox
    Traci

    • Well I came across MFP (my fitness pa) a free site which has a food diary exercise diary and forums and I am logging my food EVERY day. I want to see what I am eating and how much in black and white! Right now not so bad but I bet if I had been logging between Thanksgiving and New Years oh my gawd! loll Roy cooked and cooked and Kimberly ate and ate!!

  3. No, I do understand. I have BEEN there! I use to log EVERYTHING I ate when I first started my journey…my stomach has shrank so much that even if I WANTED to eat the way I use to I couldn’t which is GREAT but sometimes frustrating for I so WANT something and I can’t have it, I will explain about my anniversary dinner, was so bummed, I had saved up ALL day to have cheesecake. After dinner I was so full, I couldn’t have it, no matter WHAT I did! I was so sad for that is one of my favorite things! So… yes it is good and bad! The one thing I have gotten away from which I am going to go back to is eating from a salad plate, it really DOES help, since I need to loose the last part of this weight, I really need to do a big push! I also weigh more then most people, but that works for me, I guess it is whatever works for most! 🙂 But yes, I totally agree with a food diary, and totally recommend it!

Thanks, Traci

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